Vision Quest 2008

Posted on Mar 26th, 2008 by

I just signed up for a 3-day vision quest with Bear Heart's medicine clan. The quest is held in lower New Mexico, at 9000 ft elevation in the national forest. I'm a little nervous, but I know when I feel that that it is simply mistrusting Spirit to hold me and present me with what I need. So I'm letting that go.

As part of the application, I had to clarify my intentions for the quest in a de facto contract with the Creator. Here's my intention, put out there to the world:

My intention during this vision quest is to discover a deeper connection with Spirit and with my purpose that I may best serve the Creator to help all beings and walk softly on the Earth.

I hope to learn more about myself, let go of the attachments that still cling to me even after years of releasing and relinquishing whatever I could.

I hope to answer the question of Who Am I? I want to discover my identity distinct from those I love or am related to, so that I can better love each of them. I want to feel the holy love for my own soul, the infinite, flowing love that the creator pours over each of us and which we seem to find so difficult to give unstintingly.

I want to examine who I have become without judgement and with loving intention so that I can honor the goodness and love which is a reflection of Spirit, as well as own up to the behaviors that are not aligned with my integrity or harmful to my physical body or mental condition. What causes my suffering? Why do I continue when I know another way is more aligned with Spirit? These, too, are questions I hope to relinquish rather than answer. For I do not wish to have them occur again.

I hope to discover my highest destiny and envision the fully realized person that I am becoming, so that I can source from that future and be pulled forward by it. I want to leave a wide open space in my life and heart for Spirit’s spontaneity, keeping my humor and enjoying the journey with great belly laughs.

And I want to live fully and without the need for an apology. I want to recognize the timelessness of each moment of the day and night, to fully appreciate the gift of the song of life, to dance with it, and to recognize my star cousins and stand unashamed in their company, exposed and in awe of them as I am as in awe of the miracle of my physical existence.

I want to love more perfectly and completely.

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2 days later

Jayne said

Many blessings to you Ki on this quest! Is this your first one? One thing I’ve found is to be clear on the intention and then to allow it to just be held within - like a seed that is well planted. And then to just be within the moment - the experience and to trust that what will come is what should come. I’ve also found that the great majority of the time, the wisdom and clarity that comes from a quest (or an intensive ceremonial event) shows itself over a period of time versus immediately afterwards. And often, it appears when a specific situation occurs and you respond in a completely different way than you did before.